A Beach Would Be Nice

Another Day Alone, Another Day With Overthinking.

It's another day, with more thinking, unfortunately. Knowing me, I love to just sit there and think and think and think on days where I have nothing to do- like Sunday. Today, I've decided.... I'm ready for vacation. I have less than a month before going to Orlando. Again. This time I'm going to Universal Studios for the first time ever and I'm super duper excited about it, but where I really want to go is to Maui, Hawaii. It's so beautiful there- well, from what I've seen. I feel like in Maui, I'll be able to forget everything and let the water soak up all my worries, as if they never happened and when I return- everything will be amazing and wonderful.

 I just want to forget all my pain, get the love of my life back, and smile so much my cheeks get wrinkles. I've heard that beaches have the power to just steal away the pain and demolish them. I have 16 years of pain I need destroyed and happiness to take it's place. Plus, a beach is warm and the water is warm and soaks up everything and there are amazing secrets under its surface, just waiting to be discovered. It's going on my bucket list of things to do before I die and I hope I get the chance to complete everything on my bucket list. I will, for sure, this time.

  Do you have somewhere you'd give anything to be at? A place where you wish would just take all problems away and demolish them? Well, there is a place- everywhere. You don't always to go on vacation to get rid of the pain, just venture off into the great wilderness, know as none other than your own backyard. Try it. I dare ya.

-xoxo, Reid<3



The Castle Around My Heart

"The Castle Around My Heart."

   Have you ever been so in love that when your heart was ripped into tiny pieces, it hurt so bad that you swore you could never be in love ever again? Yeah, that's happened to me. I'm sticking to it too. I've made the security around my heart a lot better, because the last boy to break- no- demolish my heart has ruined me. I can't take another brutal beating like I have before. Don't let anyone hurt you, the only one who will ever love you for who you are is yourself. The castle around your heart is probably extremely beautiful and attracts many and many will try to break into your castle for the remains of your heart- don't let them.

   They'll just leave you in the rain, screaming your heart out, begging them to just stay and give you a chance and pretty faces should never have to cry let alone- beg. Make them beg for you. Lock all doors around your heart let no one in, but friends..Friend's are forever and you should love them almost as much as you love you love yourself.

    Love really does matter in life and it teaches you many lessons. One, trust no one with your heart. Two, you still need to love- just not another person. & Three, you're amazing no matter what. People can only hurt you if you let them, so don't let them hurt you or you're going to be in loads of trouble. I will forever love him, because he does still own my heart and I'm awaiting the return of my heart.

         I would love my heart back, but at the same time- I don't.



Falling Out Of Love And Into Sophomore Year

-Phone Vibrates- "Reid we should break up" That is NOT how you dump a girl. I've always been one to be dumped over the phone. I feel for all those other girls who have been in my situation. Boys should never EVER treat you wrong, but they can only treat you wrong if you let them. I learned that lesson the hard way. I've been battling scarlet fever, mono, and the hives and my ex didn't once come see me in the hospital. Shoulda said no when I had the chance right? It's been two hours..Wipe my tears and move on. Why?

Because I'm In Love With Being Alive.

There is just way to much to deal with- Being awesome AND becoming a sophomore. I will get my license next month. I'll be able to get more involved with people and create a social life. I don't have time to be sad. I need to spend my time making smiles. :)

I'm excited to be able to go out and do stuff and I have a chance to make everything better and maybe this year.. I'll find someone whos perfect for me<3
And I hope all those lonely hearts out there do too<3

                                                        -Reid. :)<3