I'm Gonna Follow My Dream.

If You Can Dream It, You Can Do It.

So, lately I've been saying, "YEAH, I'M GONNA FOLLOW MY GOALS FOR ONCE!" then totally slack off on it. I'm terrible about keeping to my goals, but this time, I'm for sure following my goals. I so know I can do it!

First, I'm going to finally force my mother to get my portfolio done and get it ready to send out the picture to modelling companies, so I can follow my dream finally. I'm going to enter all kinds of contests and find as many friends who are with the modeling business to help me out.

From then on, I'm going to wing it. I'm going to work my butt off for this because this is my dream and you gotta work for the things you love. Having a positive attitude will help me, but according to Mrs.Moore- I'm a negative person. I'll show her.

I'm also working on being funny, because I know I for sure suck at being funny. It's really pathetic, I know, right?!?! It's crazy. I promise to work on that.

If you have a dream, you need to follow it, because you only get to live one life for all we know. Why not make this a life worth living for? Forget the people who hurt you and shoot for the stars!

-xoxoReid.<3



Having A Fear Of Commitment.

"You're Only Holding Yourself Back."

Do you have a fear of being in a relationship? Because you were left far to much? Well, you're not alone, because I have that fear now, thanks to my last boyfriend. He made a promise and totally broke it and my heart into itty bitty pieces. Although he still has the key to my heart and my heart, I'm afraid to actually ever trust him again- if he ever stops being such a ninny, depressed asshole. There's a slim chance for that, honestly. Nothing has ever held me back before, but he def is holding me back from ever being in love again.

There's been several boys who have been wanting my heart more than anything, but I just don't have the heart for them. I feel so guilty going on dates, "talking" to other boys, flirting with other boys. It's silly yes, but it proves how in love with this boy I am. It's hard to get over him and it always will be.

I am struggling to trust another guy, but I just can't. Can you? I'm sorry if you do, it's terrible, but I totally understand. Do you feel like you're leading guys on? I do, def, because I am leading them on by being in love with someone else and it's terrible.

Until you can get over the guy you're in love with, don't get involved with other guys, but if you can't, you'll just have to live with it. It sucks, but it's true. Love like it's your last day.

Not Just Another Pretty Face.

I am beautiful, you're just jealous.

So, I've been called ugly, weird, and a loser. Whatever, I don't care, because they just can't handle that I'm different. Clearly I'm above them. I would rather be called a loser than look like everyone else. If you ever notice, all girls look the same- it's ridiculous. I mean, having good personal hygiene would be nice, but having the same hairstyle and face sucks massively.

I wish that girls who hate themselves, could look in the mirror and realize how beautiful they are. It's such a shame to see girls kill themselves to be skinny and to be afraid of being ugly and work so hard to be beautiful when they're really killing themselves.

Love who you are, because you're beautiful and wonderful. I hope everyone can remember that.

-xoxoReid<3