To Want or Not To Want.

The Need, The Want, The Have.

Have you ever wanted something so bad you would do anything to have it? Yeah, I've been there too... It's terrible. You go crazy for it and in the end- you lose it. I used to always say that I won't take no for an answer and it always ends up being a no in the end.

A couple months ago, I lost the first boy I ever loved because I wanted to keep him so badly. I worked TOO hard for him, but then again, he didn't work hard enough for me- or himself. It's tough, because I feel awful for going crazy over him. At the same time, it's so dorky that I did, but you'd have to be in this position.

What do you do when want you something so badly and you're determined to get it? I have no clue. Do you? I would give anything to know how to get them. I think that everyone should give someone a chance- unless it breaks the "bro" or "friend" code. Ex. Has an STD, Fucked Your Friend, Cheated On Your Friend, Etc.

Well, If you know what to do, please...call me.

-xoxo Reid<3

The Boy Who Cried Crazy

Where's My Side Of The Story?

So most have heard Trever's side of the story, so I think it's turn for my side of the story and you can pick which one you believe.

So, for my side, let me begin with, oh say- A week ago? So, Trever started texting me again,(I called him gay, so nice right?) and finally decided to walk over to my house. I wasn't into him like that because I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and wasn't looking for one right now. Anway, he showed up and was all, "Will you be my date for homecoming? Are we talking?" and I said yes to both. I mean, Hey, someone actually likes me and that comes once in a blue moon. I was happy about it at first, but then things started to get worse- He would text me nonstop and get mad if I didn't reply and whined when I never replied to me. He even liked to pick fights about everything. He can't take a joke for anything and got mad if I fake hit him. He would even get upset about mentioning guys I've dated- but it was okay for him to mention every girl he's ever fucked. He also always..ALWAYS wanted to hang out- but I can't always hang out. I was starting to get sick of him, but I still gave him a chance. Then, at the homecoming game...things got weird. I offered to take him but he said he wasn't going.. Next thing I know, he's at the game. I was hurt because A. I've had guys do this to me and B. I was tired of being played. So, I tried talking to him, but he was being a baby about it. When we finally started talking about it, he told me that people were calling me weird and he shouldn't date me. Why should he listen to them? It's dumb. Then, I found out he was bad mouthing me in his world history class to the other sophomores, saying he was going to ditch me. That pissed me off. I yelled at him. You can't bullshit me, because I'm the bullshitter. Of course, I did have a tight grip on him, but it couldn't have been that bad. He was acting like a child and not having a grown up face to face talk about it, until he eventually gave up and shoved me back. That was his way of dumping me. Yes, he did ask me out multiply times and for the first time that night- I said yes. I will never be with him again, because that was just wrong. You don't just push someone over. I shouldn't have put my hands on him but he shouldn't have pushed me. Karma will get him soon, I don't know when and I don't know how. But the way he treated me was wrong.
He also lies about never asking me out. He did. I remember.
You can pick, I don't care, but this is my side of the story.

He Threw Me Away Like Everyone Else. That's Why I'm So Desparate To Keep People.

Protege Moi

"Protect Me."

-xoxo Reid. </3

Finally Travelling The World!

The World Is Your Playground.

So, next summer I'll be traveling to flipping Paris and London and I can hardly contain myself. OH, not to mention, I'm also going to China- and to both places where my darling nieces were born. I think it's a must to travel the world, no matter what. There's so much to do and so little time and all I want to do is travel the world and live like it's the last day of my life. Before I go out into the real world of working, even though I want to be a comedian now and actress, and get a flipping job- I just wanna rome around the world and discover new things and swim in the oceans of clear, beautiful, and saintlike water in Hawaii to dancing in Bollywood, India. I just need too, it's a dream of mine. I just want to be rich and travel and change the world. Whilest helping my dear boy end world hunger. I want to go to Africa and help give electricity and clean water to the children there and love them and hug them and just be adored by the children. In India, I want to dance and learn the culture of beautiful India and just be apart of them. In Italy, I want to eat all the Italian food I can, learn the language,

The world is so beautiful and we all take advantage of it and the glory of it all. It's time to change that and I want to give people the world and give the world the people. We all just are so selfish anymore- even I am!- and it's time to change that. I hope to have a job to travel the world, maybe even be a T.V. show host. How cute, right? Yes, I would definitaley be the perfect person for comedy and the hottest Bollywood dancer.<3

Please, look at the things you have and smile widely and proudly.

Everything's amazing, but nobody is happy.

~Reid,xoxo<3