"You're Only Holding Yourself Back."
Do you have a fear of being in a relationship? Because you were left far to much? Well, you're not alone, because I have that fear now, thanks to my last boyfriend. He made a promise and totally broke it and my heart into itty bitty pieces. Although he still has the key to my heart and my heart, I'm afraid to actually ever trust him again- if he ever stops being such a ninny, depressed asshole. There's a slim chance for that, honestly. Nothing has ever held me back before, but he def is holding me back from ever being in love again.
There's been several boys who have been wanting my heart more than anything, but I just don't have the heart for them. I feel so guilty going on dates, "talking" to other boys, flirting with other boys. It's silly yes, but it proves how in love with this boy I am. It's hard to get over him and it always will be.
I am struggling to trust another guy, but I just can't. Can you? I'm sorry if you do, it's terrible, but I totally understand. Do you feel like you're leading guys on? I do, def, because I am leading them on by being in love with someone else and it's terrible.
Until you can get over the guy you're in love with, don't get involved with other guys, but if you can't, you'll just have to live with it. It sucks, but it's true. Love like it's your last day.
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