Bittersweet Love

I'll be honest- I'm a total complete asshole whenever I want to be, but that's only if you're a complete total asshole to me. I feel as if my past has formed my present. I won't lie, I'm still a bit sensitive, but not to the point of being a complete total psycho. I used to want a boyfriend so badly, but now I realize I don't need one to make me feel complete, in fact- I found that guys want me even more when I'm not wanting them. I mean that in a non-cocky way. I don't try to be a whore and wear practically nothing to get a guy to like me.

Anyway, so what I'm saying is- people who have treated me poorly have taught me that you shouldn't be such a bitter person, but don't be so trusting or too kind and don't move fast. I'm nice, I mean, I just bought someone Jason Aldean concert tickets, but I'm smart enough to know that I won't be a total pushover and let them hurt me. They even confessed today that they're an asshole(I think they just joke). I can appreciate that, because I understand how it feels to be complete hurt in your past. I let a boy rip me to shreds, then I begged for him back. Now, I want nothing to do with him and I totally don't miss him at all. He means nothing to me, almost. I mean, there is still a special place in my heart for him, but I'd be willing to get rid of it for someone else. Also, my best friends and friends mean more to me than any guy. I would dump Nick Jonas if I couldn't have my best friends and him.

Then again, I do remember that it's important to marry and/or date your best friend. I even know that, but I don't expect to marry my high school sweetheart- then again, you never know. But I'm positive I won't. I could be wrong, but I don't plan on it- I have so many dreams to fufill and I need someone who can handle my baggage and dreams. They have to love me no matter what happens. Love is something that is never destroyed, by even the smallest of things. I swear, I think no one can just fall out of love. That's just dumb. How can you just forget feelings like that? I only forget feelings if someone just treats me so horribly, that I can't take it anymore.

Lesson of the Day- Life is Too Short To Date Assholes. <3

-xoxo Reid.